I'm nearing the end of this journey and I have to admit...
Weeks 5 & 6 were tough!
I found a lot of excuses for missing workouts, eating poorly, and reverting back to those negative thought patterns. I had to refer back to my vision board, my goals, and those wretched before pictures to find motivation more than once! Some days, I could easily get back on track and others took a little more time to reboot.
I'm so close to the end and I've come really far, so I started thinking, "Why am I doing this now?" I have established these healthy habits and I don't feel deprived or weighed down by this program, so what is it?
I think the answer comes down to fear. But not in the way you might think. I think often, especially as moms, we fear failure. But I think, sometimes, we also fear success. I know that sounds strange, but think about it.
"What if I go further than I've ever gone before? Then what? Will I be able to keep it up? Will people expect more out of me than I can give?"
You see, unfortunately for me (and I'm sure other moms too), giving up and going back to what's easy is known. It doesn't feel good and has long-reaching repercussions, but at least it's familiar. In some areas of life, success and following through, pushing past obstacles, and embracing the struggle...these things are the unknown. And fear can definitely attach itself to the unknown.
Instead of focusing on the fear in the moment, I decided this past week to focus on the possibilities. The possibility of an amazing unknown or that of a familiar regret. I want to leave a legacy for my children that inspires them, so I've chosen to reset, give myself some grace for the slip-ups, and get back to business! The transformation will be worth the beautiful struggle!
"Though she be but little, she is fierce." --William Shakespeare